Finding Your Inner Light, First Steps

I was on the hamster wheel of life just moving through each day to the next.

I was disconnected, angry, sad, disappointed, and I even felt trapped.

Helpless, alone, lost, and even unable to sleep well.

I can clearly see looking back that my light was barely there.

Is this how I want to continue living for the next 20 years?

Can I live another 20 years like this?

I don’t have the exact date, but I know it had been more than 8 years when I finally did something.

As I truly started to contemplate, is this how I want to live the next 20 years of my life… my light started to grow a little brighter.

For so long I sat, waited, practiced patience for the situation to change but finally it was the moment I took a step in a new direction that started igniting the fire inside of me.

· Asking yourself questions

· No longer accepting life or the situation as it is.

· Searching or looking for something that can help.

· Listening to yourself and your body.

· Changing something, anything

No, I cannot live like this for another 20 years.

I told myself I will not celebrate another birthday living life like this.

I started reading books and going to therapy. I moved and started asking myself what do I want my life to look like? Some days I call it an awakening, some days I call it a mid-life unraveling but I got very uncomfortable.

They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result. Well, I changed everything except my family and my job, I needed to uncover as much as I could to bare bones and rebuild on a stronger foundation.

My light needed to be found, cleaned off and serviced/repaired. Today it shines brightly, and life feels magical.

What is your light looking for?

What small change will you make to adjust its brightness?